One week to go..

If you would have told me one year ago that I'd be racing an Ironman in 2018, I would have told you, "No way, never, no thanks!  Ironmans aren't for me.  I'm more of a shorter distance racer.  70.3s are long enough for me.  It's fun to watch-but no thanks."  But guess what-after 4 beers post Honu and some peer pressure I am 1 week out of racing THE Ironman.  I mean, if you're going to do one-might as well do the big one, right?  As I say, 'Go big or go home'....and I'm going big.

It's funny how life happens.  It's been a bit of a rollercoaster since June and I have a new favorite quote, 'The only certainty in life is uncertainty.'  Racing and training have been going really well.  I raced Age Group Nationals in Ohio this year and I was really happy with how I did.  For the Olympic race I was 16th over all and 3rd in my age group and for the Sprint (turned into a duathlon) I was 13th over all and 2nd in my age group.  I had hoped to be top 5-so I still have work to do but it was good to see where I placed with the mainland girls.  Hawaii is a small state with a small pool of athletes, so it's necessary to go to the mainland if you want competition.





After Age Group Nationals was when the real training started.  3 hour rides are now short rides.  It's funny how that happens.  I'm actually going to miss the long 6 hour rides.  It's nice to be out on your bike without your phone and just enjoying the ocean on one side and the mountains on the other.  Although, I was thankful when I retuned home safely from each ride (cars, pot holes, road conditions, weather...), it was very peaceful to be out there.  I didn't quite enjoy the long runs as much-but I did get used to them.  I remember my first 2 hour run and I wasn't sure if I was going to make it, but I did.  Then it turned into 2.5 hour runs (split into 2 sessions).  I've never run a marathon, so I will be in for surprise, but I'm excited to pull it altogether.

In Kona this year there will be a HUGE group of Oahu athletes.  I am not only racing for my self but for Lectie Altman as well.  She was and will always be someone who I admire and strive to be like.  As an athlete she has raced this race many times and although I think we both would have been able to qualify for this race (Hawaii Resident spot and Non-resident spot at Honu), I feel like took her spot.  Well, I didn't take it, she shared it with me so I have work to do and goals to achieve.  While being at Honu, I checked in with her first to make sure I had her support.  She encouraged me and I knew that I wanted to do this for her.

Training has also given me a purpose.  When those days come where you just don't want to get out of bed-I had to because I had a goal and I needed to train.  I'm an intense person and I always want to give my best-but that only works when you are in control of a situation and in life, you can't be in control of everything.  I've done a lot of self work and I've learned a lot about myself, things I'm proud of and things I'm not so proud of.  I like to think I've grown as a person-but I don't know if I have.  There are things I know to be true-but I have to believe them.  The mind is SUCH a powerful tool.

A couple of weeks ago I did test my speed and did the Ko'Olina Sprint Triathlon.  I have some good friends that work for the Four Seasons, so I wanted to support them and also the winner wins a free night at the Four Seasons-and I was hoping to earn that (that's the only time I'll ever stay at a Four Seasons Resort!)  I was really pleased with how the race went.  It's not a typical race and as Boca says, 'It's a short race with a long race feel'.  You swim in the lagoon and then run out to the next.  So it isn't really a swim it is a swim, run, swim, run, turn around, swim, run, swim, run to transition.  Then the bike is pretty normal-minus the speed bumps and then the run is out on the pathway for the first half and then back along the sand and grass for the second half.  I was hoping to run fast and I think I did.  My watch told me I had a 5k PR-including the sand and grass-so I was pretty happy about that.  It felt good to have a good race.  Also at that race a student from my class was there-so it was awesome having my two worlds collide.  It was pretty cool seeing his face watching his 3rd grade teacher win a triathlon.  As one of my friends said, 'He's probably wondering why his teacher doesn't have pants on!' Hehe-I raced in a bathing suit for this race.  This was his dad's first triathlon and he is hooked now!  Triathlons can be addicting, which can be good a bad.  Just like anything--you need to find the balance.  There are times when I struggle with this-but I am reminded often.  :)

So, that's it for now.  I'm excited to return back to write about my first Ironman.  Thanks for your support :)

Honu 2018

I've been waiting to take a picture like this for years!!!  FOMO!

Honu.  Besides the full Ironman, this is probably the most competitive triathlon in the state and I was so excited to race it!  Last year it fell on the same day as my school's graduation and since it was my first year at a new school, I chose to be at graduation.  However, this year, I really wanted to the chance to race-and I'm so glad I was able to make that happen.  I went into the race wanting to win.  I wanted to see how I compared to other triathletes not from Hawaii.  I also knew that since it was a Kona qualifier this year that meant the race was going to be more competitive-which made it more exciting for me.

Yah for friends!!!

I've been feeling really good in training and I've also had a feeling of calmness come over me the past couple of weeks, which I think has helped me relax and be in a better place for my racing.  I've been nailing my workouts and not going too fast when I am supposed to go slow (huge!!).  I was also really happy with how I raced an Honolulu Tri-so I was hoping to carry that momentum into this race!

It was also fun because it's like a mini-vacation.  Although I was in the same state-it's a different island. So things are very similar, but not the same.  I stayed with an awesome group of friends, which always makes the trips so much fun.  The day before the race the wind was blowing in all directions and there were some times where I felt I was going to get blown over!!  Luckily race day the winds were calmer and the weather was great.  It even drizzled on the way up to Hawi.  It was the perfect little shower!!!

The swim is at Hapuna Beach and it is a beautiful swim!!  The water was nice and calm race morning.  The race starts by age group-and the women were at the end and my age group was the third to last to start-so I was going to be passing a bunch of people!!!  During the swim I had a bunch of people to swim by.  Luckily I was able to find a girl in my age group to swim behind.  The swim couldn't have been any better-she guided me through the mass of swimmers, through the water and around the buoys.  With about 500 left to go I went around her and pushed a little harder for the rest of the swim.  I honestly couldn't have asked for a better swim.  There were times where I tried to go around her, but I ended up just swimming right beside her-and I knew that I could gain some benefit from swimming behind her.

Thanks mom for everything.  I hope you know how much it means to me.

When I got out of the water-I got out with other age groups.  I wasn't the first one from my age group out of the water, but I was in the top third.  Then I found my bike, put my shoes and helmet on and I was off for the 56 mile ride.  How I paced the bike was that I wanted to feel just a little uncomfortable.  I also had a watt goal-but I liked what this person told me-a little bit out of your comfort zone.  I kept that in mind the entire ride.  It was also important that I ate and drank everything that I brought on the ride so I could have a good run.  This can sometimes be hard for me and I need to force myself to eat and drink-but I was in race mode-so that meant that anything to make me go faster was my #1 priority.

I felt good on the bike.  I probably passed at least 500 people.  I don't know if that kept my energy up and my head up-but I was feeling really strong on the bike.  I ended up biking the second fastest split-which shocked me because there were some strong riders on that course today!

Run-just run.  Move forward.  One foot in front
of the other (what I was telling myself the last
4 miles of the race).

So I felt that I set my self up pretty well for the run.  I ate and drank everything, plus another water bottle that I got from an aid station.  When I got off the bike I quickly transitioned and left for the run.  I wanted to run by feel-but I may have started out too fast...because with about 5 miles to go I started to drag and my pace slowed down by 1:30.  I don't know if there is anything I can do to keep this from happening...but if it didn't happen I would have had an even better run split!  I'm glad to leave the race with something that I can improve on to get faster.

Overall, this was another strong race.  I placed 2OA and 1st in my age group which meant I earned a Kona slot.  I never planned on taking the slot-and even when people asked me 20 minutes after the race I was sure I wasn't going to take it. Then as the day went on, more and more people asked, and so then my answered changed to, 'I need to talk to Michelle'.  I knew Michelle thought I could do it-but I just wanted to make sure I was able to also do my goal race of Age Group Nationals this year.  I really want to compete at the Olympic Distance and I would like to see how I match up to the women on the mainland at this distance.  So I made sure she knew this was my A race but I also knew that qualifying for Kona is not something I could pass by.  Kona is a bucket list race and you just never know what life will put on your plate-so I took it!  Training will bump up a bit-but there is a big group of us that will be racing this year-which is also really exciting.

Bowls up high!!!

I'm glad to have this race on my schedule.  Although I am intrinsically motivated, there are some days where I just want to lay in bed.  But I am really appreciative of triathlon and the role it plays in my life.  I con control my training and choose how I am going to train that day-but I will always have training.  It seems like people come and go-but training will always be there-as long as I stay healthy.  The past couple of days have been hard.  Although I should be ecstatic with my placing and that I qualified for Kona-sometimes reality hits you square in the face.  I don't have any control over others-I can only control my actions and how I react to situations.  I have learned this the hard way and I'm learning it again.

On that note-thank you triathlon for the chance to make new friends, feel strong, and help me keep my life together.  

Honolulu Tri

Honolulu Tri is a lot different than the other local races here on the island, because more than half of the competitors come from Japan.  It makes me think of racing in Greece where I didn't speak the language and I didn't always know what people were saying.  It's nice because there are new faces, which mean new people to race against.  Lastly year I placed third, and this year I recognized some names from last year-but I knew that I was in better shape this year-so I tried not to set any pre-race expectations.

As the gun went off-we were off.  I was able to get into the elite wave, which meant we got to start first-so the water and roads were nice and clear.  The swim was a big aggressive at first-which is common, but within 300m I found Michelle's feet and swam there till the first turn-around.  At the turn-around she picked it up, but I was only 5-10m behind, which is huge for me!  When I first starting swimming with Michelle she told me that the only reason why she's faster is because she swims more-so I said, 'I can swim more'.  So I did. And I've gotten faster.  I don't know where I get my motivation from.  I really enjoy the training and the process.  As I've said before-I race to train--instead of training to race...did I get that right?  I like training better and feel like I need to race so it makes sense why I train so much.

Anyways, as I got out of the swim we were off on the bike.  I was by myself the whole ride.  The Japanese girls are really good swimmers-they were one of the first athletes out of the water, but I knew that they weren't very strong on the bike but that they were strong runners.  First off, they were all on road bikes-which weren't very aero.  So I had my job-catch the girls on the bike.  And throughout the ride I caught all but one.  I was also a bit worried about some of the local girls and didn't know if they were going to catch me-so I wasn't riding comfortable.  There are a lot of turn arounds, so you can see where you are amongst the competition and I couldn't see anyone riding up on me-but I was still riding a bit scared.  I finished the bike in second-so I just had one girl to catch on the run.

The run course was a flat 10k.  Last year I was just getting over plantar fasciitis , so my run wasn't very strong-but I've been feeling really confident in my running lately-so I was ready to have a fast run.  I wasn't too far behind the first place women.  She was running out of transition as I was running in-so I had her in my sight.  Of course I didn't want to start too fast-but I also had work that needed to be done.  I ran a good steady effort and just after the 5k mark I run up behind her to make the pass.  I wasn't sure if when I passed her if she was going to come with me-which I didn't really want to happen..and luckily it didn't.  I turned around a couple of times during the run to check-but I also had a couple of men in front of me that I was trying to pass-so that kept me going at a good pace.

Overall this was a great race for me.  Everything came together.  My body felt good and I was able to break the tape against some strong Japanese girls.  Although you don't win anything-it's good for me to have some different competition and to feel like I am racing.  This race was good prep for Honu!

Haleiwa Tri

Race season is upon us! And new season means new kit!  I am excited to represent Team WYN this year.  The kit arrived a couple of weeks before and I couldn't wait till it was time to race! I was SOOOOOOO excited about doing a triathlon-so excited.  It felt like it had been so long since the last time I swam, biked, and ran all in the same hour!  Technically in Hawaii we can race all year round-but it does get 'cold' here (race day morning it was 57 degrees!)

The first race in Oahu is the Haleiwa Triathlon! I did this race last year, and last year, one of my good friends went down on the bike when a car tried to go through the cones and into Haleiwa town.  Although I was so excited about racing a triathlon, I was a little nervous going into the race-but spoiler alert- all turned out well!

The gun went off and my goggles were still in my hands, 'Well I better put these on,' I thought to my self!  Quickly I put them on my face and dove into the water.  This swim is always really short.  It's advertised as 400m, but it's always a little shorter.  Triathlon swims in Hawaii are often short.  I don't really know why.  We have a lot of water and places to swim.  Anyways, I finally had my goggles on and I when I was rounding the last buoy the sun was shining which made the final buoy hard to see.  So, I had to take my goggles off so I could see where I was going-perhaps next time I should skip the whole goggle part 😂.  But once I got out of the water, I ran into transition and onto my bike :)

It was a good day to ride a bike.  The course was 3 laps around town.  With each lap, the road got more crowded, so it was my goal to get off the bike as quick as I could.  A couple of guys passed me on the bike and I wish the competitive edge in me would kick in and I would want to go with them-but it doesn't.  I need to get that back.  In college I ran the 1500 and the 800 and I can remember when someone made a move, I went with them. However, now in the longer races, when someone makes a move I don't have the desire to go with them.  This is something that I'm working on and something that I want to change.  However, I was happy to see that my laps were faster than last year (thanks Strava!).

Once I safely got off the bike, I was ready and off running.  Last year, I had plantar fasciitis, so my running pretty much consisted of short, easy runs.  This year, it has felt really good to be able actually run!  The Haleiwa run course has a lot of sand, so it's hard to get in a good rhythm but the part that wasn't on sand felt great!  It felt good to find a pace that was challenging but not easy.  During the first part of the run a couple of athletes passed me.  Again, this is where I want to have that drive to keep them in sight and not let them whoosh right by me.  I need to make this a goal!




I ended the race 9th OA and first female, which is a great way to start the season.  I work hard during the week, so it is nice to see the hard work pay off during the races.  I'm an athlete who really enjoys the process-the training, more than the races.  Although I have improved a lot I still need to work on my drive and not let my fellow athletes pass me.

Up next is Lavaman on the Big Island this weekend and then after that Hapalua Half Marathon, where I was asked to be part of The Chase on Team Hawaii.  These are some of my bigger races of the year and I'm excited for them!!!

Friends and racing

One of the best parts about triathlons and sports is the people you race with.  In high school I became good friends with the other girls I ran against.  I really liked this.  It was fun to race against these girls since I knew how much work they put in each week and they made me want to work harder.   It's the same with triathlons.  It's fun to see the girls and guys at each race both on the course and off.  Before and during the race, it's strictly business-but afterwards it's fun to catch up and chat!  There are different groups around the island that meet and train together, but personally, I tend to do a lot of training by myself, mainly because of time.  I do really look forward to Masters Swimming, because that is my social training time.  In the pool it's fun to work hard and see others push theirselves to be better and get faster.  I could meet others to run and bike, but I don't.  I wonder if my running and biking would improve if I did this?  I think it just depends on the workout.  Anyways, that's not the point of this post-the point is to say that friends that have the same hobbies are great!  And it's even great to hang out with those friends and not workout!  For the past couple of years, I've always had a running birthday party--where I get my friends together to run and then we eat afterwards.  It started in Utah with a morning run and then breakfast afterwards and then last year it progressed into dinner and this year I decided to invite a lot of people, but I couldn't make dinner for everyone so I made it into a 'run and dessert'.  My plan was to make desserts for everyone, but I forgot that I lived in Hawaii and people always bring things--so we ended up with a TON of desserts!  And I also forgot that we are all active and don't always want the extra sugar.  I don't know what I was thinking?!?!?  Next year, it'll be a 'run and fruits and veggies' party.  :)  But it was a lot of fun.  It was fun for people who only knew each other from Strava or Instagram to meet.  It is a small island, but not everyone has met face-to-face.  I had a great time chatting and watching others have a great time too.  Thanks everyone for coming and spending your Friday night with me. :)

Triahtlon and dating

Triathlon is not only a sport but a lifestyle.  At the age of 32 (almost 33), I find myself still single and wanting to find someone to share my life with.  I've always thought that I would end up with an athlete, specifically, a runner or a triathlete.  I've dated runners in college and most recently I dated triathletes and neither has worked out-each for different reasons.  One thing the relationships had in common was the triathletes were very passionate about their sport and their sport was their number 1 priority.  I too am very passionate about my sport, but I know that I can make my partner my number 1 while still being passionate about my sport.

I've also dated some non-runners or non-triathletes but there are times when I feel embarrassed when I have to explain to the person I am dating, that my workouts are like another job to me and that it is important that I am able to complete them.  They aren't something that I am going to skip to hang out and I guess I feel guilty about this.  I don't know.  Dating is such a hard thing.  I know the grass is always greener-but I am ready to find someone to start living life with. Someone who I want to make a priority and someone who wants to make me a priority.  It seems like such a simple task, but it isn't at all.  I've been on the dating apps, but I've had to take a break from them.  It wasn't fun anymore.  It was causing me more stress.  Ideally, I'd like to meet someone 'in real life' but almost all my friends are married or in a serious relationship, which means they aren't around single people very often, I live on an island, and I don't go out much.  Honestly, I can only think of one person that I could potentially date, but he is friends with both of my ex's...so that probably isn't the best idea.

Now, why am I am sharing this on my public blog--good question.  I guess I want to get in the habit of blogging again.  I want my blog to be about my life in triathlon and this is where I am right now.

I also sometimes get 'mad' at the sport.  In the past, I have felt like I've been dumped for a sport.  Why do people choose a sport over a person?  Why is a sport more important than a relationship with another human?  In my life, triathlon is important, but if I find someone that I want to be with-I know I would make them my number 1.  But guys are different.  Or maybe they aren't.  I guess the relationship didn't mean the same to them.  Or I've heard it many times, 'the timing wasn't right'.  I believe these words, but I've just heard them too often.

Anyways-in the meantime I will focus on myself and the things I can control.  I'm pretty excited that I was chosen to be a part of #teamWYN2018.  This is WYN Republic's inaugural team, so I feel pretty lucky to have made the cut.  I'm excited to make triathlon more than about myself and help my community and also the triathlon community.

Lanikai Update

Lanikai Triathlon was as great as everyone promised!  The racing was fun-but the most fun might have been the socializing afterward.  :)

First about the race.  So, it was a 500m swim, so not too far, which meant it was going to be fast.  I am not the fastest swimmer, but I am also not the slowest.  I've been swimming a bunch, especially since I had to take a break from running, so my swimming has really improved.  With the said, there are still swimmers that kick my butt in the water!

When the race started I found myself in the pack and I looking for some feet to pull on.  The men started 3 minutes before us, so within a couple of minutes, we were passing some of the slower swimmers.  I didn't really find my rhythm and I was just trying to hold a good pace, since I knew Lectie was going to have a strong swim (she ended up having the fastest swim split-including the men!)  When I got out of the water, I found myself next to a girl who started swimming with the Kailua Masters and who is WAY faster than me in the pool!  Just like with riding inside vs riding inside, there is a big difference in pool swimming vs ocean swimming.  I think each has it's place-but I think it's important to do both. Anyways, I came out of the water right with her--and then a bit ahead I saw Michelle (who also kicks my butt in the pool and ocean swims!).  When we got into transition I was right there with her.

Looking at the results after, I wasn't too far behind.  I still have some work to do to be more in the mix of it, but I am putting in the time!

Once we got out of transition we were out on the bikes.  I was excited about this ride.  I just felt I could have a strong ride.  There was a turn around spot about a mile or two into the race, so I was looking forward to seeing who was in front of me.  I saw Lectie and figured out she was about a minute ahead of me.  She is such a strong athlete!  It is so exciting to be racing her.  So I had that in mind while I was racing.  I also knew some of the men racing and I thought I could pass some of them so I had them to look for on the bike too.  I also knew that Michelle was behind me, so I didn't want her to pass me either!

The ride was pretty crowded since the women started 3 minutes behind and there were a lot of guys to pass.  I remember when I first started doing triathlons I was eager for the bike part to be over because so many people passed me, but now I look forward to it.  I have really gotten a lot stronger on my bike, especially since I wasn't running too.  My legs weren't as fatigued.

Anyways, as we were coming down the downhill I forced myself to stay aero.  This is another place I can improve.  I get really nervous riding down hills.  I just think bad thoughts and my life flashes in front of my eyes..but when it comes to racing I am more confident because there are other people around me doing the same thing, so I suck it up and go for it.

I got off the bike the same time as Michelle and onto the run we went.  My foot was still tender since my PF, so my running wasn't the strongest.  I felt tired on the run and I just wanted it to be over.  I don't like it when my triathlons feel like this.  It is such a contrast from when I started the sport.  It was during the run where I would pass the most people and rarely would I get passed.  That has changed and I don't like getting out run or passed but it happens more often.  But in the end, I can up second to Lectie.  Like I said before she is so strong, even at this distance. 

After the race, it was fun to hang out with friends and meet some other athletes.  Being around people who share the same passion as I just makes me so happy.  There is an energy about it that I just love.  Maybe it's the endorphins-but I just love seeing people work hard and enjoy being outside in Hawaii. 

Thank you all for making this such a great sport.